Oh man, my God is crazy! He has brought my life to a place that is no where near what I thought I would be. I am working at a job that I never thought I would be doing. I am living back in my home town, somewhere I never wanted to be again. I am working in a ministry that I never would have placed myself. I am processing my relationship with God in a way that I never would have thought I would have been processing. I am doing so many things that I never thought I would be doing. God has put so many detours in my path over the last ten years, that I look back and have no explanation on how I ended up "here & now" except that I know God has been directing my path.
It would be hard to walk you through the last 10 years, but let me give you a quick list of some of the detours that God has directed life of our family to our "here & now." I left full-time ministry for a "tent-making" life. We moved our family back to my home town with no job, and lived in a motor home behind my parents house. I have started a business and failed at a business. I have carried 3 jobs at one time. We have had a 3rd unexpected child and almost lost her and my wife. We have put about 7 offers on 7 homes, none of which have been accepted. We have changed our time of worship from Sunday morning to Saturday night. We have gone from leading a small group of teens and young adults to leading a small group of families. I have gone from thinking about God in the traditional way to having a relationship with God in an "out of the box" way.
Here is what is so amazing to me, I am absolutely loving the "here & now!" The main reason that I am loving the "here & now" is that I know that God is alive and active in my "here & now." My relationship with him is now an ongoing adventure. For so long I was concerned about the "end", where God was going to place me and my family. I have learned through these detours of life, that God is not so concerned with the "end" as much as He is with using the "here & now" to shape how we look when we finally reach the "end."
The truth is this, my "end" is secure, it is the "process" of getting to the "end" that is the grand adventure with God! I am now learning how to embracing the unknown of the "here & now!"
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